Monday, April 17, 2017

Stomach Gymnastics

Seventeen days have gone by and I haven't posted. I have had a few thoughts, but nothing that I can capture and get on to this screen with any kind of logic or flow. I have been busy and will continue to be busy until the end of the month. Prom is at the end of the month and I'm the Prom Committee sponsor. For the most part, it has been a good experience. But now we are getting down to it and there is so much left to do. I'm stressing out because I just don't know if it will all get done or not.

You know when your stomach starts to do gymnastics as you think about the stuff coming toward you? That is where I am right now. I'm trying really hard to be positive and okay with not perfect. But so far I just keep thinking about the ways I can fail. So I haven't been writing anything because I can't think of anything except all the ways I can fail.

Um... I started this post a week ago and hoped that I could conquer this. I have for a few hours and sometimes even a day. Then it comes back. I'm now on Spring Break and having difficulty sitting still because I feel like there is still so much to do.

So I'll just post this and find a way to sit still.