Friday, December 18, 2015

What's going on?

Photo Credit: Ian Sane


I should probably be thinking of a blog to wrap up the year, to tell you about my One Word for the year, and be thinking of a new word. I'm not doing any of that. I'm just thinking about today and not even one day forward. I'm a bit stuck in one spot. I'm not exactly sure why. I'm devouring books which in some ways makes me happy, but it is bordering on obsessive which generally means that I'm trying to avoid some emotion. But I have no clue what emotion or how to figure it out.

The end of the year is coming and I should be preparing all kinds of end of the year wrap up posts and activities. I'm doing none of that. Maybe it is all the stuff going on in the lives of those around me. I'm trying not to take it all in. I'm trying to give it to God and go on. Maybe I'm not doing a good job of that. Maybe I'm just stressed with all of the requirements on me because I know I'm not performing up to my best in most of these areas. Too much stuff and not enough me. I'm sure you guys know what I mean because you've probably been there before yourself.

Not that it is all doom and gloom around here. Lots of things are going well. My kids have had great Christmas programs. We have gone to a couple awesome Christmas parties. I always love having the tree and it's light around. I'm looking forward the family time coming up. Life in general is going well, So maybe I'm just overthinking everything.

I can't quite pinpoint what it is that is nagging in the background somewhere, if it is anything. When I figure it out, I will let you know.