Monday, October 28, 2013

Unexpected Meetings

Stop me if you have heard this one...

An addict walks into a tattoo parlor and.....

'Tattoo Parlor Door' photo (c) 2013, Mike Licht - license:

opens his Bible and his heart.

Maybe you weren't expecting that. Most people don't expect it when I tell them I go to a Bible study in a tattoo parlor with recovering addicts, divorcees, 'good Christian' people, enablers, homeless, young adults, not so young adults, kids, and more. This Bible Study has become a place where I can open my heart and be ministered to. These people are becoming close friends even if I only meet with them once a week. I am seeing God in a whole new way. I'm learning things slowly instead of trying to rush to figure out the conclusion. And mostly, I know I'm being loved.

So if you are ever in the Hickory area on a Monday night, hit me up. We'll go to a tattoo parlor together and meet Jesus. 

Monday, October 21, 2013

Pregnancy is beautiful

It seems as if my post on Friday came off as a little, or maybe even a lot, negative. I forgot that most of you don't see me on a regular basis to see. I forgot that you don't see the smile on my face when someone asks me about my pregnancy. I forgot that you aren't privy to the conversations we have in our house about this little girl. And I do feel a little bit guilty because I can't keep up with all that I normally do. So I feel the necessity of explaining myself.


Maybe you heard my guilt instead of my joy.

We have also had some health issues, financial issues, and other stressors of life. Nothing out of the realm of a normal middle class life, but stressful and frustrating in their frequency.

Maybe you heard my frustration instead of my expectation.

I want to be honest in my writing. However if I'm only honest about the negative stuff, then it isn't really honesty. So let me tell you some of the blessing little Miss Lilyann has brought with her already.

We have been blessed beyond measure with people offering us gently used or in many cases completely unused items. A few people are even making things for her. I am tearing up even now thinking of the people that are loving on her already.

Ben told people for at least 2 weeks before the ultrasound confirmed it that he was having a sister. He also loves correcting people when they don't use her full name, Lilyann Grace. He talks to her and tells her good morning and good night. He has picked out some toys for her as well. He is already in love with his little sister.

She is the first girl in many, many years on both sides of the family and I have seen many family members faces light up when talking about her.

Drew and I can already tell certain things about her and we can't help, but giggle. For instance, she tried to hide her face during the most recent ultrasound by putting her hands in front of her face. She loves pasta and chocolate. Drew is all the time putting his hand on my tummy and talking to her. It is pretty safe to say that we are already smitten.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Good Stuff Saturday 10-19

Of course, I love photos. This one reminds me of my hometown and the hardworking people there. And this one is foreign, but beautiful.

Being an avid reader, I loved finding my category.

And related to that, here are a few more categories.

A little more book reading. This book looks good.

I love this idea and I'm going to try to be at the local one!

Yes, yes, yes! Over and over and over I say yes.

This is way honest. I wonder if it is real, but it was an entertaining read.

Friday, October 18, 2013

Pregnancy is taking its toll.

In an effort to conquer the blank page, I'm going to just write some stuff down and we'll see how it goes.

I don't remember pregnancy being this hard the first time around. I remember being sick for 5 months and a smidge of heartburn at the end. This time I think I have every symptom known to man.

Morning Sickness 
Shortness of Breath 
Loss of Equilibrium 
Breast Changes 
Frequent Urination 
Mood Swings ✓ 

Some things are getting better. The morning sickness is much better. The nausea is a little better. The frequent urination is better as well.

Some things are worse, like loss of equilibrium, forgetfulness, mood swings, and sleepiness. I haven't lost my balance as in falling. I do however find myself off balance and need to hold something or sit down more than I remember having to do last time. I am all the time forgetting words and sometimes even forgetting appointments that I had. I am going to bed earlier and getting up later, but I am still sleepy throughout the day.

As to mood swings, let me tell you this story. I woke up about 4:30 am to hear the dog drinking like all of her water. She lapped up some and kept going and kept going and kept going. I got annoyed and called out to her. She took a last drink and stopped. Then I got annoyed because she would have to go potty when I got up in a couple hours. I would have to let her out and I would probably be nauseous. I expressed all my frustration to my husband, huffed, and rolled over to try to go back to sleep. My husband is so wonderful that he got up right then and let the dog out. He waited for her to come back in and got back in bed. Who knows how long it took him to go back to sleep. He doesn't fall back asleep easily. In that moment, I almost teared up I was so thankful to him for doing that and completely in love with him for thinking of me when I was being absolutely ridiculous.

So if you are the praying type, you might say a prayer for him because I'm tried of living with me at this point! 

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Good Stuff Saturday 10-12

Now I understand why no one else pronounces pecan the way I do! Check out your linguistic oddities too!

Owls, ducks, and elephants. These photos were just too gorgeous to not share.

I didn't really know there was a big to do about this, but there was and I love this response to it.

I so needed to hear this and I need to read this again and again.

Friday, October 11, 2013

Staring at a blank page

'Blank Moleskine Pages' photo (c) 2005, Sembazuru - license:

On the way to work, I had several thoughts that could have made up an interesting and mildly humorous post. Now I don't remember any of them. I have gotten out of the habit of writing mentally as well as physically and it is showing in the amount of times I come here and think of writing something. Nothing comes out.

I sit and stare at a blank page and think, "Why can't I remember those awesome words I had an hour ago?"

Well they probably weren't awesome, but they were words that I put together in my head and they made sense. More sense than a blank page.

However, today I am left with a blank page and a hope that by simply writing something on a blank page those writing synapses in my brain will start working better.

So maybe next week I'll have something good to write.