Then out of the blue boulders seemed to be hurled from the sky and you find yourself running for cover. You look to your left and to your right. You see injured people and you are desperate to help. You search for something you can do to ease their pain. You come up empty handed. Your head and heart are full to overflowing. You find yourself praying all day long. Every spare second is spent crying out to God because you have to keep reminding yourself that He is big enough to handle these things. You have to remind yourself that God is love and He loves those hurting people. You have to remind yourself because you begin to wonder if it is true. After all life isn't supposed to be like this. Life isn't supposed to be this hard. You are a Christian. These injured around you are Christians. They deserve better. You deserve better. Isn't that what we get out of it? 16 “I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves. 17 Be on your guard; you will be handed over to the local councils and be flogged in the synagogues. 18 On my account you will be brought before governors and kings as witnesses to them and to the Gentiles. 19 But when they arrest you, do not worry about what to say or how to say it. At that time you will be given what to say, 20 for it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.
21 “Brother will betray brother to death, and a father his child; children will rebel against their parents and have them put to death. 22 You will be hated by everyone because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. 23 When you are persecuted in one place, flee to another. (Matthew 10)
Why is your heart breaking? Why are you walking around in pieces? How can you possible love this much? Your heart must be breaking out of your chest. It has to be seeping out of your pores because you can't feel this much and keep it all in. How can Jesus take this? How can he feel this much all the time? You know he loves you, but not until you love others does it change you. Feel this love, pray with this love, speak with this love, and send this love.
God help me keep feeling for these people. Don't let me shut myself up. Give me your heart and your words.