Thursday, September 15, 2011

Phonaphobia

At the beginning of the school year, we got a new principal.  That is always scary.  You know, new person, new ideas, new ways.  Things like turning in lesson plans, ugh!  Turning in a pacing guide, double ugh.  A new schedule and some new duties, when is it going to stop!  Oh and then he said the worst thing of all.  Positive parent phone calls!  It was too much, so I just focused all my energy into everything else, the lesson plans, pacing guide, kinks in the new schedule, and learning new duties.  A couple weeks in and I feel like a pro.  Then I look down at my parent call list. Names and numbers are there followed by empty boxes.  The boxes are staring me down and forcing me to run away.  I just can't do it!  It isn't the parent part that bothers me.  It is the phone call part.  An email or a letter I can handle, but he asked for a voice to be heard.  So I must use the phone.

Maybe this phonaphobia doesn't make sense to you.  In which case you are probably one of those amazing polite small talk people.  I am not.  I am the worst ever!  Ordering pizza is something I have to psyche myself up for.  Mostly Drew does that because I just don't like the phone.  Yesterday, I called 3 people before it occurred to me to end the conversation with have a nice day.  Yes 3!    It just doesn't come natural to me.  I think that is the main reason why I don't like calling on the phone.  Ben will tell you.  My cell rings and he says, "DeeDee"because my mom is the only person I talk to on the phone.

Tuesday night I started psyching myself up for the task.  I continued to work up to it on yesterday.  During planning, I sat down to read the Bible and God started prodding me also.  So I sucked it up and made the calls.  Well, a couple.  The first one was horrible!  I stumbled over my words and forgot to properly introduce myself.   And of course it ended with an awkward goodbye.  The second and third got better.  By number 4, I was remembering have a nice day.  Then the phone didn't want to work.  I was able to squeeze 2 more calls out of it.  (One of which was an awesome conversation.) But I still have like 10 more!

This can't be happening.  I was prepared to do this yesterday, but it didn't work out.  So I'll have psyche myself up again, have one horrible conversation, and several good ones.  So this morning I have started with biscuits and gravy and some AMAZING Honduran coffee.  I think I can.  I think I can.  I think I can

Have you faced a fear lately?  How did it go?  If not, is there a fear you should be facing?

7 comments:

  1. yes i know how you feel ;o i hate doing the whole talking on the phone thing because for one.. its just weird! txt someone have a decent conversation that way because on the phone i am the least happiest and mono toned -.- its an annoying that that honestly, shouldnt be made because i know for one that my parents wouldnt particularly like to be on the phone with one of my teachers randomly throughout the day. yeah its hard but you should make a skript for yourself to read haha that could work xD
    fears? eh this project i got done today! have no idea what i am going to be doing tomorrow whenever i present it but all i know is that it looks amazing and i will find something out! tomorrow will test how good i do! wish me luck :D

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  2. Looking good and getting it done help a lot with those major projects.

    As for the phone calls, for me, it wasn't bad because I got to pick. So I could call the parents who I actually had something to tell them. For other teachers, it was a little weird because there wasn't much to say. Overall, it was good because I need to get over my talking on the phone thing at least at my job.

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  3. I am horrible at talking on the phone! i dont like it and i never know what to say it s just a awkward silence. so i agree. im like that to like if my dad says to call a pizza place and ask how much something cost or to order a pizza i have to practice what im going to say because i just dont like talking.

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  4. So good to know it's not just me! :)

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  5. i don't like talking on the phone either, especially with people i don't know. If its someone i can really talk to, i could do it for hours but if not, then i cannot do it. For volleyball every year, the coach calls us to tell us about the team we made and i dread it every year. i don't know why but i really hate it. my mom makes me call people as we are driving down the down and i sit there and rehearse for a couple minutes just to make sure i don't forget anything and sound stupid, but then i still manage to forget something and it ends up being so awkward. -kayla

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  6. Forgetting an important part makes it awkward. I know because I do that a lot!

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  7. I only like talking on the phone when it is someone I know and am comfortable around. I am like you where I have to get some nerve and call the pizza delivery place. I always feel awkward talking on the phone to a person I am not well acquainted with. I even make courntey go up and ask for a new type of pizza at village inn. For the longest time I wouldn't order my food at a restaurant.n yea I'm a little shy... o well I'm starting to slowly over come that. -jordan

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