Thursday, August 25, 2011

Where am I?

Sometimes you are going along in life and thinking that you are really starting to get it together. You are growing closer to Christ. You have some good habits built. And then something happens. Nothing earth shattering, but a change.

You're thinking you've got this. After all you have this great Bible reading habit and good prayer time. You really, really know God has a plan. You even got a glimpse of it. You can handle this.

And then you have already run into problems. You are focusing so much on you and your issues that you miss the big picture, the one that God sees. God is missing from your 'encouragement' and so you've left him out of your change. Within no time you are drowning in this change. You're rushing forward to make things work again. Nothing seems to be working. Why isn't it working? Don't people know how important it is to go this way? Why aren't they doing it your way?

Now you have left God out of your change and out of your decision. He's waiting for you to turn and look at him. He's got the answers. He's got the plan. When you do turn to look at him, he seems so very far away. You've gone so far without him. How could it be that you ran so far away so quickly? You weren't this far earlier. How is this possible?

Then you realize, you weren't really that close before. This space has always been here, you were just too blind to notice it. Now it's time for the slow, humble walk back to Him. This isn't an easy walk, but in the end you will be closer and that space will be a distant memory.

****And of course by you, I mean me****

2 comments:

  1. oh my gosh :X i hate when you do this to me! you do these blogs and then i read it and then i notice how bad i am at this whole christianity thing! we all know i have been at this church sense i am 3 and well lets just say i am not the closest person you will ever meet to the "church" its "inhabitants" its "bible" and its "other stuff". i read this and i dont listen to what gods plan is! i do it my way! i know i have a HUGE gap between me and him. i almost NEVER pray and when i do its when i am in my weakest position or i am in dier need of some extra help and i hope the whole praying stuff works [ex) praying for grandmother to feel better during chemotherapy, hopeing that she heals! gets rid of it]. even when i do pray i dont even come closer then! its just its bla to me! maybe i will grow into the whole "faith" thing one day? but for now i just know that im in a bad spot

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  2. We pray for your Grandma every night over here. Ben even prays for Debbie's treatments to go well. Actually Ben says Debbie...go well.
    Honesty with yourself and God is the first step to growing in your faith my friend. I am glad my blogs can help you thing more about you and God!

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