"A ship is safe in its harbor, but that's not what a ship is for." -William shedd.*
Change is hard. There are currently some changes going on at work and it's pretty scary. I keep trying to remind myself that God is in control. I am praying that I do his will and not my own out of fear. But I catch myself thinking of it often and my reaction is fear. I immediately think of God after that and I calm down. The quote above made me stop and think. Maybe God is pushing me out of my harbor into real work. That is daunting, but a smidge exciting. Even with these thoughts, I still fear the changes. Why?
Jeremiah 29:11 is one of my favorite verses. God is leading me towards a very definite ministry. I see how my job right now is a part of that. But my first reaction on hearing of these changes isn't "God's got this.". It's "Oh my gosh that will ruin everything." Why do I think that? Why do I let fear grip my heart?
I could say I'm human, but that's an easy cop out. I could say I'm still growing in my faith and that is partially true. I think I would rather say I let it happen because I'm still not convinced God loves me. That's pretty harsh to say, but true. Be praying for me about that would you?
What about you? Do you believe God loves you enough? Do you believe he loves you in your finances? In your job? In your family? In your fears? In your passion?
*Someone posted that quote on their blog this week and it stuck with me. I wish I could tell you who, but I forgot. If that was you, sorry for not giving you credit for discovering it.
One more announcement - One of my Honduras group members is going back in January. If you are interested in helping her out, check this out. I know she would appreciate any help you can give and the kids would too.