During the Easter drama, 'the crowd' has to shout. Once it was, "Blessed is he!" And the other was, "Crucify him!" Being a backstage organizer (Helping Drew get in and out of costume and get bloody and unbloody.), I helped yell as well. When I yelled "Crucify him!", I thought "Oh my gosh! Did I just say that?" And the immediate answer to that was yes. I really did say that and I do say that every time I look more at myself and less at him. When I get all obsessed about what is going on with me and in my life and my opinions, I am saying that all over again. I am putting him back up there on that cross with my sin. That makes me sad.
The second time is related to the first one. After church, I was helping Drew get more unbloody. I saw he had a mark on him. I asked him about it and he said it was a mark from the whip the guards were using. They missed the cross once and hit him by accident. (Hitting the cross made the appropriate loud noise and whipping sound.). I thought "Oh that must have hurt. I hate that got hurt doing that." Wow! Did I just say that? He is reenacting what happened 2000 years ago. Jesus really was whipped. He really did have a crown of thorns on his head. He really was crucified. He really did carry the weight of the world on his shoulders. And I think, "Aww..sad about a little mark." Wow, just wow! To reinforce the idea, here is a photo of the mark on Drew.
|The mark on Drew|
So while I do think I have grown in faith this Easter season, I still have a very long way to go!!